Today is the 11th day we fast.
My mom and dad invited MIL and FIL to break fast at my aunt's place in JB.
We left home at about 4pm. We went by Tuas. To our horror, we were stuck at the highway before JB custom for three whole hours!!
So, by the time our car reach the custom, it is already time to break our fast. We make do with mineral water that we have in the car and some potato chips.
Once reach Perling, all of us made our prayers before sitting down to have dinner together..
As we were eating, we chatted.. and this topic about "she don't eat this and that started". I hated when MIL is there and this topic comes up, because she will ALWAYS point at me and say, "She also don't eat alot of this". What irritates me is not the topic but her statement. I don't eat alot of things????
I just don't eat beef, mutton or other red meat. I eat all sorts of veggies, seafood, tofu, beans, fruits etc. Maybe a little fussy on chicken. But that is all. I eat dairy, cheese, yogurt, pizza, indian food etc..
What the *^%$ is she talking about?
She's the one who don't eat pizza, and still say in front of people, "rase sikit la, takot menantu kecik hati". So i guess all this while it seems as though i've forced her to eat??
She don't eat cheese, don't eat turkey bacon, don't drink milk, don't even eat the meet that she cooked!!!!
oh my god.
And what pisses me off is that, she say that in front of my mom. Like as though my mom don't know me. what the *$#@?! My mom brought me up, our eating habits are the same. And she's telling my family as though, they don't know me. As though my family are strangers? oh god.
I'm just so pissed off.
On Tuesday this week, my dad dropped by our place, to give us some fruits. There were 1 watermelon, 1 jackfruit, 3 coconuts and 4 pineapples. My dad specifically told us to give some to my BIL & wife Nadine.
So when me and my husband passed the message to MIL, guess what she says,"kite ni takde kereta eh, camne nak kasi?" MY MIND FEELS LIKE EXPLODING THAT INSTANCE.
My BIL has a motorbike. She can just call him and let him know to drop by after work to pick them up.
If she can call them to bloody pin point their mistakes, why can;t she just call to ask them to come and take the fruits???
Back to today, when my mom asked MIL how was the fruits, she mentioned it was nice.
And how is Nadine's voice, has she recovered? MIL say she didn't know, "kalau telephone nanti tak boleh cakap, tak dengar suare" and when i asked, has she told them about the fruits? she replied,"ar tula telephone tapi tak angkat"
this is fasting month. and she is lying publicly, when she didn't even called them. I personally called Nadine to ask, Nadine says she and BIL DID NOT RECEIVE ANY CALL FROM HER SINCE SUNDAY.
Ya Allah, I pray to you in my prayers, I desperately need you to grant me patience and relax my mind. Cos i'm a person who can't handle stress. I breakdown easily. I can't focus. I'm not the type to say it out either. Basically i suffer within. which drives me crazy. And it affects my marriage, my relationships, my work. I have lost my good friends. Please help me.
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